Happiness

The night has hit it's peak
The air has became cold
The street is soundless but those few cars
It's now 3am

Why am I still up?
I just wasted the last 3 hours..
Did I not enjoy it?
Absolutely not.
But am I happy?
No. Not really.


I laugh but it's hollow
I smile but I'm frowning
I socialize but I'm alone
I'm affectionate...
But really I'm absent

What is happiness?
The sound of laughter?
The sight of a smile?
The absence of sadness? Maybe.

I really should be sleeping...

Happiness is a rare delicacy
something that has been overlooked
It's hard to taste
Sometimes hardly tangible

There is one thing that' makes me sad,
but it is also the only thing that i find joy in...
Tell me, is love the experience of every emotion?