Poems and Thoughts

Happiness

2010-04-27T09:54:00.000-07:00

The night has hit it's peak
The air has became cold
The street is soundless but those few cars
It's now 3am

Why am I still up?
I just wasted the last 3 hours..
Did I not enjoy it?
Absolutely not.
But am I happy?
No. Not really.

I laugh but it's hollow
I smile but I'm frowning
I socialize but I'm alone
I'm affectionate...
But really I'm absent

What is happiness?
The sound of laughter?
The sight of a smile?
The absence of sadness? Maybe.

I really should be sleeping...

Happiness is a rare delicacy
something that has been overlooked
It's hard to taste
Sometimes hardly tangible

There is one thing that' makes me sad,
but it is also the only thing that i find joy in...
Tell me, is love the experience of every emotion?

Tears

2010-04-17T06:43:00.000-07:00

Tears Tears why do you chase me?
Is there no one else to catch tonight but me?
Should you hunt me down until I'm conquered by your power?

What is your purpose?
Will you not accept my plead?
Can you not sympathize with my overwhelming misfortunes?

Tears Oh Tears, please let me be, go from me. Please... please leave me alone.

We search...

2009-10-28T07:22:00.000-07:00

We Search, hour by hour,
We Search, Minute by minute,
We Search.

For answers untold,
For truths to unfold.
We Search...

Aimlessly without direction,
seeking aid to our void.

For forms of love,
only to silence true love.

How long will it take for us to see,
that we are not supposed to flee?
From the one who calls us child,
who yearns to set us free.

We search, day by day,
for ways to silence what is unseen,
because fear grabs a hold of us,
So tangible, you beg for mercy.

We Search, for alternatives,
for paths easily seen,
We search, to put to sleep our dreams,
maybe, just maybe,
this may cease the torment and despair inflicted to the heart.

We see, an open doorway,
to a life of ease,
flat is the path before our eyes,
trickery always convinces the fool.

We look deeper, our hearts now crumbled,
filled with regrets, with no hope in sight,
on this path of ease.

Again, We Search,
realizing there's no other way,
We Search, for the path of our destiny.
But the tenacious spirit of fear never fails to threaten the soul.
We are frightened of what we see,
but We fight, fighting the intimidations of fear,
just for a glimpse of our destiny.
We cry, We yell, We Scream, We take victory,
We keep searching...

Another open doorway beholds us,
the doorway to our destiny.
No, the path was not straight,
neither was it flat,
nor is it clear to our senses.

The mind begins to doubt,
but our hearts screams out,
deafening to the core yet so clear,
It is difficult to ignore,
So we look, deeper into our destiny.

We see, a life so clear,
filled with joy and hope.
But risky is the path to our dream,
again we attempt to search for another,
Hush, we say.

This time, there's no avoiding,
no running, no hiding,
until death approaches,
the desires of the heart always triumphs.

"Be bold and take heart,
because Fear will always linger,
Take the easy path to destruction,
or the unclear road to your destiny" - anonymous.capii

"your heart is left with a void,
when you avoid your heart~" - anonymous.capii

Spiritual warfare - I will trust in the Lord

2009-10-18T22:31:00.000-07:00

I shall trust in the Lord,
For His promises are Yes! and Amen!

He is Good all the time,
He is my stronghold at times of trouble,
and He knows me intimately because I trust in Him.

Indeed! I will prosper,
for I am blessed coming in and going out.

His word declares the truth,
and His Spirit I shall trust.
My hope and my trust is set on the Lord,
and like Abram, He has credited it to me as righteousness,
because I trust in Him.

No, I have not gained righteousness,
nor can I ever.
"For if righteousness could be gained through the law, then Christ died for nothing!"

I shall love the Lord,
with all my heart and soul,
The Lord always preserves the faithful.
And the Lord will avenge and repay in full the proud!

I will be strong and take heart!
For that is His command!
I will step out with strength and courage,
I will not be terrified by my enemies,
nor will i be shaken.

For greater is He who is in us,
than the one who is in the World!

I will trust in the Lord.

Know Your God.

2009-10-18T22:23:00.000-07:00

I was blind, but now I see.
Whenever and Wherever,
You are always there for me.

When I search for Your presence You show me Yourself.
Never do I wish to part from this.
Some say, Man's love for God is tested by God hiding from us.
But the God I know, loves me beyond measure.
He would never hide from me,
Your promises are always true,
that You will never leave me,
nor will You forsake me.

"The lies we believe leads us to destruction,
For we lose sight of Him,
when we forget who He is.
We maximize the power of our enemy when we believe his lies,
and in turn we minimize our God." - anonymous.capii

11th October 2009

2009-10-18T22:19:00.000-07:00

Oh, Your love so amazing,
How could this be?
You pull down the opinions of man,
and make all things new.

There is a difference between,
simply caring for someone,
and truly loving someone.

You show me the depth of Your love,
not just towards the people who love You.
But you announce to all,
that everyone is YOUR people,
every single person on this Earth are Your Sons and Daughters.

No one is superior,
not one.
We are all made in Your image,
ALL crowned with Glory.
All called for a purpose.

You have called us all,
Your love is so amazing.

What is this yearning?

2009-10-16T08:40:00.000-07:00

I've sat here for along time,
staring at the screen before me,
mezmerising probabilities.

The dreams of my heart,
so close, yet so far.
oh my soul yearns,
As if it is trying desperately to break free.

Free from control,
Free from being afraid,
Free from false humility,
Free from false reality.

When will I let go?
When will I start to dream?

8th October 2009 "Who does He call you?"

2009-10-09T07:35:00.000-07:00

I may appear an average woman,
or a man if you so desired,
I am known by many,
and most call me by my name.

People use many words to describe me,
Kind or Abusive,
I dare not wonder,
In fact, why should I care?

My ears are to one, who names all who He loves.
With His love and passion, He named us all, according to our destiny;

Abram was called Abraham, The father of nations.
Simon was called Peter, The rock.
James and John were called the Sons of Thunder.
Hadessah was called Esther, The Star.

At the beginning of Time,
He looked at my form and exclaimed, "What a Glorious work of Art!"
Eye by Eye,
Ear by Ear,
Hair by Hair,
Finger by Finger,
He carefully took the best and knit me together.
He worked Hard to His perfection.

Then He gave me the most important thing of all,
the thing in which I will live by on Earth,
the thing in which I will turn to when I lose heart.

He gave me a name,
Alike no other name,
Like the DNA of a creature,
or the uniqueness of a Fingerprint on every living man.

He called me forth,
Like a mythical story,
I came to Life as He declared over my soul, "Captivating Warrior".

So, What does He call you??
I'll let you think about that one. =]

The Glory of God

2009-10-07T08:18:00.000-07:00

Mankind throughout generations had thought of themselves as wise creatures.
From hand to machines, we had believed that our intelligence exceeds that of every other, even God Himself.

We live with a false knowledge that we are God Himself.
There is nothing Good about us and we are just mere creatures waiting to reproduce ourselves...
Such foolishness.
God Himself now has been resulted down to the knowledge of our little understanding.
When all along we've ALL somehow missed the bigger picture.

The God of the Universe created ALL mankind in His Image.
Thus, whether we like it or not, we have inherited His likeness.

It had never been meant for rocket scientists to discover this.
It had been told, written, discussed all along.

That we are the Glory of God, and somewhere along the journey we've lost it.

Meaning, we as man have inherited ALL the traits that God Himself possesses, It had been there since birth, since day one.
why then do we sit here and wait for "luck" to find us?
We are His Glory, so WE are the Heroes. - anonymous.capii

work of art

2009-10-07T08:15:00.000-07:00

There is more than one story to a picture,
imagine a canvas,
The mere colors and details distract us from what is behind what we see.

Alike the judgement of a person at first sight,
or the headline of a story in the newspapers.

We cannot truly see until we are blind,
Until we shut our eyes to what we think is reality,
and learn to truly see with our hearts.

Monday, 5th October 2009

2009-10-07T08:10:00.000-07:00

"We are not born with strength, we have to be weak to be strong" - anonymous capii

Saturday 3rd of October 2009

2009-10-07T08:03:00.000-07:00

Surely, He who is above wins over all.
Sweeping down with mighty fire,
filling the room with the greatest elements He possess.

I see His Glory in Gold,
I feel His love so tangible.

Why then would anyone choose the way of captivity?
A life of torment and despair.

Did He not go down to darkness Himself to take back what is rightfully ours?
The key of freedom which we so freely give away for the lust of this World?

Did he not already take the hardest step for us?

I choose life,
Life which had been waiting for me since the ancient of days.
Life that had been talked about,
dreamt about, written about for centuries and decades.

Life that had been waiting to give birth,
waiting to be fed, to be nurtured, to be set free.

"Wake up my beautiful daughter,
life is waiting." He says.

"You are not living unless you are walking in your destiny" - anonymous.capii

Friday 2nd October, 2:30am

2009-10-07T07:53:00.000-07:00

Paralysed I lay,
with no vision of Hope.
Pondering many questions,
one that is clear,
Is this what I deserve?

A demon faces me,
eyes wide opened,
not blinking, not moving.
It's glare intimidating,
When was access granted?

I had somehow befriended fear,
Yet something tells me there is no need.

Strength and Peace is now a stranger to me.
Since when did they leave?

No encouragement seems to be present,
and even if it was, what good would come of it?
Would mylife turn around in a flash of light?

Evil Hunts me day and Night,
Leaving no room for comfort, rest or a sound mind.

Light, where is your power?
Love, where is your fire?
Peace, where is your comfort?
Heart, where is your courage?

The ironic noise of Christian music playing in the background,
is yet to create stillness in this room.

On a quiet night,
In a house of one,
with nothing but the sound of my breathing,
and music playing,
there seems to be another noise.

A louder one.
As if something was raging war in the tiny space of my room.
Loud and Clear.
The sound of 2 realms in battle and me in the middle.

Who will win this battle?
The answer lies within me,
The proper question is,
who will I choose?

We are not what we seem

2009-10-07T07:48:00.000-07:00

"The eyes which are closed, sees clearer than that which is opened." - anonymous.capii

I once saw a vision, that of my heart.
It is yet to come to past, But I've seen it clearly.
It was the day my heart spoke to me...

Darkest hours

2009-10-07T07:33:00.000-07:00

Dear my Longing,

I come to you tonight confessing my regrets,
coming to you naked and raw.
These are no scars I present to you,
They are wounds that don't seem to heal.

Would you forgive me for running from you?

I have been running from true love,
only to get myself knocked down.
Suicidal thoughts rush through my mind daily without ceasing, I am at the point where I cannot see the future, Im ruined.

Who am I to ask you to save me once again?
When I am as tiny as a grain of sand in Your hands.
Who am I to say "help" when all I've done is run and hide my face from you?
Who am I fooling when you alone have eyes to see through all?

So why do I run when you are the only one who can set me free?
My tongue can fool thousands, my lies, tens of thousands, but my life can never fool You.

Not that I have murdered neither have i committed the crimes of this world. But the one thing I am found guilty of is the worst of all sins, that is, living my life away from You.

No, the worst of all sins I have discovered is not realizing you had been there all along...

I can't go on fighting alone, What would you do to me?
My heart yearns for freedom, my heart will never deny your love, my tongue will not deny your existence, but my life denies all that you have done...

If only I was never born, then "Romans" will never be true...